Still catching up with f-lists o.e;

Well, today was the first day of the half-way point into the second quarter.
I literally feel as if the time has passed in the blink of an eye.

First class was Image Manipulation.
.. He and the class loved Jasmine~~~~!
He called it "brilliant, outstanding, really well-done, beautiful etc. etc."
I got a 10/10 on the front of the card but a 9/10 on the back, only because of a stupid miniscule error with the pattern being a 0.25 in. off of the canvas border =___=;
It's okay though, considering I didn't like the back of the card anyway. XD

I also had to explain a little bit of who Jasmine was, and as I explained how he passed away this past year, two voices popped up saying "Malice Mizer?!"
*headdesk*
... I'll forgive them for knowing who Malice Mizer is, but really man, get your facts straight lol.
Oh, I'll be putting the card back up so go to the earlier post for it kay?

Next was Effective Speaking, and all I had to do was inform the class about a certain topic. Now originally I was going to do JRock or VK and it's history and stuff, but I ended up deciding to show people how to spin a rifle, because it required the less amount of research or practice for me. xDD
Everyone was all *O* and @_______________@ OMFG SO KEWL~!!!.. ah, it was hilarious. xD And all I did was the most basic of rifle techniques.. well, I guess it does look pretty cool to an outsider or whatever lol. Got an A on that.

Edit: Btw, there's a girl in my class who works at Disneyland and she told me that Disney is hiring for dancers/color guard people around 5'4" - 5'7" for shows and parades and stuff. Though I was flattered she would tell me about it, I'm quite comfortable working at a family business, where I have flexible hours and I don't have to scream my head off as much when a crap-load of stuff is dropped on me lol (as fun as it would be to work there... besides I don't want Shreya's proclamation of me being the ambassador to Disney coming true LOL)


Now tomorrow is Anatomy, which I am currently finishing up now.
I'll take a picture of it as soon as I'm done.

I'm kind of sick of drawing at the moment, only because I've been at it all weekend long.
Literally non-stop, and that gets to you after a while.
It's times like these when you feel like you don't want to go through this ever again because it's so tiring and you get ticked off at the thing you love to do the most. As they say (and Gackt as well if memory serves me right) it's hard sometimes when what you love becomes your job.
But it's also the time where you just have to keep pushing through, because the feeling you get when you finish something you started is worth it all in the end.
Of course, I feel like I want to scream at my homework right now but I'm sure when I finish I'll be happy. xD

*sigh* Off to the drawing board, peace for now.

Sooooo I'm a big fan of LOST.
I couldn't watch the premiere last night 'cause of Typography homework, but today I got to watch it (thank you TiVo~)
Even though it's the last season, I feel as if the 2 hour premiere only added more questions and WTF moments xD

( LOST analysis-ish and spoilers )
Anyway...
I caved and bought the special edition.
I don't think I have much self-control around you G v.v;....

As for college, next week is mid-terms so I have a lot of crap to do, oi x.x;
Sleepless nights, here I come.

Why am I having dilemna issues today?!
Add that to the 7 quirks meme: reaaalllllly indecisive XD

Aaaanyway...
Went to Mitsuwa and Kinokuniya today looking for Jubilee - no goose egg, so I gotta order it online =o=;
Not that that's bad, I just hafta wait longer *le sigh*

But to my main point:
Which version of the Stay the Ride Alive single do you guys think I should get?
*feels glares on me*
 ><;;;; Sorry that I have stores that sell these things okaaaay TT__TT;;?!!?

*cough*
I know that the other two come with the PV makings and there's the 6 different version one as well, but I'm just not sure if I want that or to keep it simple and buy the regular.
Gar, it's a tough decision.

I really should save my money for a Mac... they're growing on me ;///;

Ah MUCC, I'm liking your stuff more and more each day~
 

Good song ne? And lyrics also w00t~!
Tatsurou's voice is especially great in this song methinks.

Also I think I caught up with people's posts, didn't comment as often as I thought I would .__.;
Yeah, this is stuck on re-play in my mind now xD

Oi vey....
Truth be told I'm not sure why I'm on here right now - I had 2 hours of sleep last night,  working on my Typography homework (that subject... I have a strong urge to burn it). I should be packing it in already....
Well I will be going to sleep in a minute or two, but I had to catch up on some Gackt updates for what seemed like forever since I last saw something Gackt-related.
I'm working on the f-list, so if you see a comment on a post from long ago, it's probably me. XD

It's only the third week of school and already I feel so drained~..
This week will be killer as well *sigh*
I'm done with school for the week but it's the time I have to spend on homework that's just crazy...
Oh well, tough love this is.

Pretty much accurate... It says pale turquoise ne? My brain wants to read it as pa-le-tur-quoise, it sounds fancier xD
Waa I'm analyzing it (thanks for the idea Shreya, this is gonna be long LOL)...

It makes sense that I'm dominated by blue and green because my fav color is blue, then green (though somedays black is my favorite color, so he sticks with blue and they flip-flop on certain days). I've always been the smart egg in my classes or at least one of the smart eggs throughout my life. I have a natural curiosity for things and I love to learn. And admittedly, I like to show off my brain power every once in a while so people can see how much I do know and strive to learn. It's not so much of an "Omg I'm smart, your stoopid, I pwnz you" thing (lol at the spelling xD) but... I guess I just want to inpire other people to learn and do better too. Even if I honestly didn't like a person because of how they acted and continued to focus on their looks and partying more than studies, I kind of hoped that maybe something I helped them with would rub off in a good way and that they could change for the better. One of the saddest things to see in my opinion is when people waste such a precious gift. Knowledge is power yo.
Being a smart person though, you have to watch how you present your intellect to others, because you don't want to come off as a know-it-all, so even though I would know answers to some questions, I never raised my hand - gave others a chance to learn something and it didn't make me look like a smart ass lol (the wonders of education before college ne?).. I hope none of this sounds conceited by the way, I'm not trying to make it seem like that XD;
I guess I do try to help out people when they're having problems. I don't like seeing others down in the dumps when I'm usually quite happy, so I have a tendancy to try to make things better, even if I'm only helping a smidge. I could be having a shitty day but if someone else is also feeling the same, I'd push my problems aside and help them out (oh that Daemon test was right on the mark, lemme tell ya xD). Do I give good advice and provide some comfort...? I don't really know. I'd like to think so though, or at the very least I can make a person feel a tiny bit better.

Ah yes...
I love balance and harmony.
This is why I am so glad I was never involved in drama. All my friends would have something biting them in the ass, but I was never involved with it, and for good reason. I don't need my life to be filled with overly-stressful or overly-emotional situations, it just throws me off balance and wastes too much energy to be thinking about. Besides. nothing good ever comes out of fighting over the stupidest of things, like blaming someone on your team for being in your drill position when it was YOUR INSTRUCTOR who assigned them there. Or fighting over a boy - a high school boy. And other nonsense. And you know, you do the best you can to advise your other friends to stay out of situations that will just end in drama, but that's about all you can do =\
... I am so glad I am in college now btw, so much less stress @___@;

Final thing: I'm an optimist. It's just better to see the glass half-full than empty you know?  This also kind of ties in with the helping others thing from before. Okay, I know I blog every once in a while about things that get me depressed, but this journal is the only place that I even mention any of the crap that gets to me xD; For the most part, I look forward to the dawning of a new day and the endless possiblities that come with it.  I want to do the best that I can to make the most of my life. I want to do and see everything I can, and even though I may complain about tests or projects, I truly love it all and this life I was given. We all inevitably pass on, but it is the journey that each of us makes that will define who we were.

ryuik

Your result for The Golden Compass Daemon Test...

Tough Talker Soul

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This is pretty accurate. I'd probably go with the flying fox, that's just sick XD

Sooo....
I feel like posting about my Gackt dreams xD;

( Concert )
( Transformers and S.K.I.N.?!?!? )

( Picture time! )
( Vegas baby ;D )
( More of a nightmare-ish )

( Gackt + Arashi = ? )
What kind of dreams have you had about Gackt :D?

I think there should be a regulated amount as to how much Gackt you expose yourself to in one day.
I'm probably hitting high levels here already xD;

Right now I'm listening to each of Gackt's songs and writing down what I see with each one, so I don't forget some key things I want to include when I go and sketch them out.
It's hard work I tell ya.
Some are easy, like Misty, Seki-ray, Marmalade, and I can see multiple images for a few of them.
And others like Oasis and Emu ~For my Dear~ are harder to visualize.

For the most part, when I listen to Gackt's songs I see color.
Naturally, it's the easiest thing to identify first when you listen to a song.
That, and lines, depending on if the song is more legato or staccato (smooth and flowing or choppy and alternating.. Design class is coming back to me xp;; )
Reading translations of the lyrics help me visualize something as well, and sometimes they just make me go "Wtf that was not what I pictured at all // That doesn't help me..."
I'm not saying Gackt's lyrics are bad or anything, but they go hand-in-hand with the song. And I don't mean that a song is completely dependent on the lyrics either.

You can understand what he's trying to convey my listening to the tempo, the way the instruments are used to create a certain mood, the emotions he evokes out of you or puts into his vocalizations, whether he screams, speaks gently, or goes into falsetto...
Of course, ya'll knew that because I believe most of us fell in love with Gackt's music based on that ;]

But when you read what he is really saying, then another door opens and a whole new set of images mix in with the ones you had before.
Sometimes you could be completely right and other times you were way off.
Like Dispar... or Koakuma... or Maria.. you get it xD;
But that's also the beauty of it all! Because everyone has a different opinion, different ideas, and the way we see things is not always the same. And a song could mean something completely different to one person than to another.

I see so may brilliant things... so many colors, so many stories, so many images... more so than I did before, because I'm really concentrating on it all.
And it's all so wonderful.
Everytime I hear his voice, I find myself falling into a whole new world that he has opened up for me, right inside my mind. Like my creative self is spreading out inside me, from head to toe.
I smile proudly at each new idea that I see and write down, and I want to cry from how amazing it is and how happy I feel.
Gackt is the only person who can make me feel this way, and I'm so grateful for that.

Sometimes I doubt my artistic skills can capture what I imagine, and usually I'm not satisfied with anything unless it looks perfect in my eyes. That's when my perfectionsim can get annoying. "We are our own worst critic..." and all that jazz.
But you know... art is never perfect. It encompasses so many styles and forms, and some are bound to like what you do, others will hate it.
As long as I give it my all, I think I can be proud of whatever I accomplish - that's the main point.

Whatever my art ends up looking like, I hope you guys will enjoy it~

 

Here's to hoping I can stick to some of these goals n.n;;

* Write a letter to Gackt and send him emails now and again.
I'm incredibly nervous writing to him... it took me forever to leave a comment on his MySpace page, which he probably doesn't check anyway, and I can't find the nerve to write a comment on his blog let alone a letter ><;;;;;;... but I will, I will, I will.
This is unrelated to the fanproject that's going on, but even that... I get nervous xDD

* Lose weight.
I'm not in horrible shape, but it would be nice to get my muscles back and to keep myself healthy. At least 2 days out of the week I need to dedicate time to dance and get on that bike again.

* Continue refining art skills
School will give me the tools, but I gotta put them to good use outside of the necessary projects. Hmm, this also includes finishing projects that I set for myself, and I should be starting some later on today~
P.S. Be up-to-date with the animation industry.

* Time manage better
Between homework, Gackting, going out with friends... I gotta balance it better, especially when it comes to the net and neglecting some homework for a couple of hourse when it's due the next day >__<;;;

* Post pictures from Japan
Okay this isn't really a resolution but it's been like 6 months already. MUST DO! O_____O

Aaaah I can't think of anything else at the moment, I'm waaay tired xD;
But, I got some things down *nods nods*

EDIT:
* Find time to study Japanese
I If I can dedicate at least 2 days a week to study for a certain amount of time, I think I'll get a better hang of it <3

*clings to laptop screen*
Oh my gosh....
Another day without the net and I might have died x____________________x;;;

( Been drugged for the past few days, oi x.x; )

Anyway, that's just letting you know how I've been n.n;;;;;;

I just want to say Happy New Year to you all~!
Whether this year has been horrible, great filled with loss, happiness, frustrations, awkward moments and everything in-between, here's to 2010. May it bring us all happiness and more great memories into our lives.
Oh, and let it also be another wonderful Gackt-filled year ;] <3

I made this big long post about my vacation and already posted it, and then I go to check it and LJ effs it up.
*strangles*
Is that your way of saying it was too long and bothersome for others to read?! =_____=;;;

Oh well, I'm not writing it again - too lazy. xD;
Just know - Xmas was good, awkward and fun times with friends, Sherlock Holmes is a good movie and Up made me cry, I got a new stereo for my car so now I don't have to murder pop radio and I also got a new camera, aaand a shirt that says "Got Gackt?" with his picture on the back thanks to my mama's co-worker~~~
The pic is this one (thanks ryuik !)


See, now that LJ deleted my post I already said like everything I wanted to ish... and I don't want to repeat it xD;
Umm..
Oh!

So I went shopping with my mama today, found some nice clothing, more boot warmers, hats, aand 2 CDs. We're going shopping tomorrow as well, so it's basically a girl's week.
It's funny - there was this gray beanie with a purple flower on it, and it was crocheyed (..how the hell do you spell that btw?) on, and I called it ugly. My mom thought it was cute and told me to try it on. I did, and ended up buying it. LOL
Of course, now I find it cute.
I work hats pretty well, but I always get hat hair =_=;

I think fashion is interesting. I'm not into labels or anything, just whatever looks cute and stylish, and says "me"
But it's strange how some clothes look better on others ya know? It's fascinating really.
Well, clothes are an exension of one's personality ne?

Oh, the two CDs I got were D'espa's Redeemer and An Cafe's BB Parallel World from Hot Topic.
That made my day extremely happy, because I didn't have to pay for extra shipping 8D~!!!
An Cafe's was also the CD+DVD version.
Now, I told myself I would only buy CD+DVD's from Gackt because (naturally) I spend the most money on Gackt stuff.
But I mean.. it was $11.99. CHEAPER than D'espairsRay's (which was regular, mind you).
I COULD NOT PASS THIS UP!!!
That's my justification for it lol

Considering I didn't get any Gackt stuff this year (because I didn't make an x-mas list fast enough...) I'll have to go to Mitsuwa and Kinokunya for my goodies~
I wonder if they'll sell Gacktionary? I kind of hope so~

Going shopping tomorrow with mama and hopefully seeing The Princess and the Frog.
My uncle said it was great and he cried - an ex-marine LOL

Also getting my wisdom teeth pulled this Wednesday...
e.e; Just in time for the new year ne?